Well, this is awkward. I will be completely upfront with you, I'm not a huge fan of talking about my problems, and I'll be honest, I'm probably not going to. But I figured after getting a few emails asking about my whereabouts so I think they at least deserve to know where I've been.

Well I've been spending most of my free time just laying in bed. I haven't been motivated in a while, not just in art, in life in general. For a while I felt like I've hit rock bottom, that nothing would go right. I feel a lot of feelings I know I shouldn't have, and I've been beating myself senselessly over it (metaphorically speaking, of course).

But as far that's all I'm willing to give you, I know it may not be fair only getting a fraction of the story, but I honestly don't feel all too comfortable speaking about it. It's my own emotion and I should be the one handling it, and not bombarding those with it. And each day I do try to do more and more to get me out of that rut I feel. There are days I feel okay, and good, but other times I don't make it from under the covers.

I figured, since a lot of you were so worried, instead of telling you individually I thought I should write so those who do want to know, know. I figure maybe I'll try to be on MSN or AIM from time to time to check up on you guys.

Hope you're all doing well.

I'd be more detail oriented if I wasn't so fukken tired :D

Requests

I don’t take them. Sorry. However, if you catch me in a good day and we commence talking, it’s quite a possibility you may talk to me in one of my generous moods and I may ask you if you want something. However, I won’t get mad if you ask, who knows, right? Maybe you’ll walk in on me when I’m ambitious. 

Trades

I no longer accept unfair trades. By that I mean if you ask me for something epic in proportions, with backgrounds, incredible details, incredible dynamics, I expect the same from you to the best of your abilities. No longer will I sit there and work for hours on something to only get maybe a chicken scratch of my character done on lined paper with a coffee stain in the corner. If you want something done right and to your liking with extreme details, it’s only fair that you offer me the same. If you want something flat colored, I want the same from you, if you want shadows/lighting, you know the drill. The only exception is animated icons. In which the minimum is 5 frames and they’re all individually drawn and colored. I do expect more than just a sketch for that since it’s a lot of work on my behalf. That is up for discussion depending on what you want. The maximum is 6 to 7 frames.

But considering the events that had happened, the new rule is that if you want something done for you, you will have to show me your steps, as well as I’ll show you mine. Let’s say I got the sketch done. Before I can show you anything you should have your sketch done and ready to show it to me. I will shrink my sketch down to small size to protect myself from what was mentioned above happening again. Same goes for you. If you, let’s say, get your inking done, before you show me anything, make sure I’m done with my inks as well and ready to show you as well. Fair is fair. For both our sakes (since my schedule is hectic) let’s say I get to flat coloring the piece, and you haven’t done it yet. I will refuse to do anything else until you have finished that step. Same goes for you, if I don’t catch up to the step your in, you are allowed to put it on hold until I reach the step. As I mentioned, fair is fair.

Commissions

I have yet to have a problem here, but you never know. In the future, when we discuss a possible commission, I may ask you pay half the commission price after discussion. You only have to pay half when I am ready to start your commission. That way, in case it takes me a while to get to you, you won’t feel cheated out of money.

These rules are subject to change so check every once in a while.  

For the first time in 1 1/2 weeks I got 6 hours of sleep ^^ 

The puppies are thriving and they're fighting less and less, and they all have good homes for when they grow up and are able to eat on their own. 

After all this I decided to apply for a job in the pet shop nearby. LOL Feels appropriate. So wish me luck on that. :)

I'm going to be on MSN tonight, though not aim. Aim's being a pain for me, so I will try to be on tomorrow instead. 

Hmm, that's all for updates, really, I'm not all that interesting at the moment. Markus is a bit stressed out on his job, so I've been tryign to be more attentive to him. Poor guy :( 

Um.. that's guess. LOL I'll try to do something more interesting for tomorrow.

Okay, I just thought this would be a great idea to have just simply because a few people don't actually appreciate having too many journals on their FA stuff, or a bunch of memes or the what not. So I thought I'd save everyone the trouble and post nonsensical things here, thoughts, and the what not here, and try to leave my journal on FurAffinity stuff mostly either art related, or at least be something everyone would want to read, instead of mindless drivel XD Though I may end up using this to write my thoughts on thigns as well. Most likely on a personal level. I dunno. We'll see if I even stick to this XD

Or so I hope that it works out that way.


Anyway, I have nothing to say at the moment, just trying to finish the trip and I'll be back soon. I have many art and comments to sort through so I'll try to get on that as soon as I get over my jetlag. 

How fun.